Tengo's memory will stay with me, of course. The touch of his hand will stay. My shuddering emotion will stay. The desire to be in his arms will stay. Even if I become a completely different person, my love for Tengo can never be taken from me. That's the biggest difference between Ayumi and me. At my core, there is not nothing. Neither is it a parched wasteland. At my core, there is love. I'll go on loving that ten-year-old boy named Tengo forever - his strength, his intelligence, his kindness. He does not exist here, with me, but flesh that does not exist will never die, and promises unmade are never broken.
Aomame in 1Q84
"He once told me about polar bears - what solitary animals they are. They mate just once a year. One time in a whole year. There is no such thing as a lasting male-female bond in their world. One male polar bear and one female polar bear meet by sheer chance somewhere in the frozen vastness, and they mate. It doesn't take long. And once they are finished, the male runs away from the female as if he is frightened to death: he runs away from the place where they have mated. He never looks back - literally. The rest of the year he lives in deep solitude. Mutual communication - the touching of two hearts - does not exist for them. So, that is the story of polar bears - or at least it is what my employer told me about them."
"How very strange", Satsuki said.
"Yes", Nimit said, "it is strange." His face was grave. "I remember asking my employer, 'Then what do polar bears exist for?' 'Yes, exactly', he said with a big smile. 'Then what do we exist for, Nimit?"
after the quake: thailand
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